Get Serious.

Its not a matter of how hard I try, its whether or not I get the point.  I'm gonna try to make these introspections a bit more regular.  At least I can treat it like a journal to some degree.  Perhaps writing down my thoughts and feelings will help me get to that all important point.

Currently I seem to be struggling with EC and the idea of his discouragement.  It is overpowering at times.  How am I supposed to pick myself out of the gutter when I feel like throwing myself off a bridge whenever he talks to me.

Introspection?  Feeling?  So small.  Humble.  Humble.  Humble.  Please.

Issues.

Things I need to work on:

removing my ego and arrogance.

keeping calm and low key

doing the proper thing at the proper time.  you can throw the iron ball around.  you can have sex.  you can get married... but my thinking and approach need to adjust

not thinking too much.

remember this feeling of getting the job.  be humble.  let other people set the tone.  just be a busy little bee.  i can't lead until i know how to follow..... DOLORES!!!


BE COOL!!!!

keep it simple and peaceful... I will BE VERY HAPPY